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sometimes i get frustrated with myself because i know most of my drive to achieve comes out of a need for validation. a need to feel worthy. a deep hole inside of me whittled away by years of feeling unseen and unheard and unacknowledged. i am channeling these feelings into the act of creation, and i wonder if it’s all corrupt from the start. if i didn’t have these feelings, would i do anything at all? would i just be satisfied with the status quo? is there a balance here? is there a “right way”? am i healing myself through reinforcement? proving to myself that i am enough? i don’t know what the right way to do anything is. all i know is that i have to give myself a shot. to pour all the energy i can into my own success. it kind of feels like i keep adding challenges for myself. to prove that i can overcome them. slowly, i am understanding my power, but this can also be an extremely exhausting way to live. i guess all any of us can do is keep plodding along. and having faith, and trusting that the path is illuminating itself as we walk.

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relatable. i’ve been questioning my desire to be successful and a help to others and if that really comes from my highest truth or if it’s to fill an anxious void the ultimate goal is to focus on your highest passions and what lights you up the most (what journey would be most exciting to be on regardless of the outcome), and just be an example to others. but that can be derailed by anxiety pretty easily i was told i was a bad person too many times and started to worry that it was me who was the problem all along. so i had to prove otherwise (which is impossible) what’s helping me right now is deciding to think about my worst fears being true and to not give a fuck. my fear of being a horrible person after all. maybe i’m some kind of evil psychopath, but if i am then accepting it and owning it is an important step. enjoying it even. making it fun after trying that out it turns out i’m not, but leaning into that fear is the only thing that really helped release it embracing not resisting ❤️

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Gm @yerbearserker alerted me to your lovely cast here. I firmly believe that adversity plays a big role in who we ultimately become. Most people can't identify these feelings and don't know why they feel a certain way. You already have a leg up on them. You got this 🫂 420 $tipn

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We all have our own path with its own little adventures and obstacles along it. Many see this and don’t even set foot out the door. There are some who take the first steps, and then those that follow, & on that path see discovery many things about themselves, that can further bring up many emotions and onwards and onwards, and… there is in all of this a wandering forward, bouncing & aching, into hard sought glimpses of understanding which are a great treasure This living & learning, slowly onwards & upwards, as we become more than the day before, & encounter old & new motivations along the way Perhaps it is both the way it is, and ok, as well as the way it is en route to becoming? Either way… it is the way it is & you are keeping on becoming & that is a beautiful thing 🙏 Outwards & inwards, the same journey unfolding & interweaving

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this is so painfully real and deeply relatable. thank you for putting it into words so honestly. i think a lot of us move from that same hunger—to be seen, to feel like we matter—and honestly? it doesn’t make what we create any less meaningful. maybe it even makes it more powerful. healing isn’t linear, and the way you’re walking through it with awareness… that is something. you’re doing the best you can with what you’ve been given, and that’s more than enough. rooting for your peace 🤍

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Ultimately many people are successful Because they want to prove something. But some just succeed for the love of the game.

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There's nothing wrong with doing things for recognition. Everyone wants to be heard and seen. I often feel that way about my own work; what is art without an audience to see it? That desire indicates that there is a part of you that needs to be seen and heard, either by you or other people. I encourage you to sit with that part of yourself, that emptiness, and just sit with it; what does it really need? What does it want yo tell you? Better yet, use your art to explore it! From the darkness can be found light.

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Good evening @tinyrainboot. To be honest I can relate with you, for so long I did things on this app because I wanted to be seen, I almost changed who I was because of the need of validation, this in itself can become exhausting and tiring. But what I want to assure you is, as long as you enjoy doing it, as long as you love it, it would not be exhausting, it will not be tiring, it will not be mentally draining. Hang in there chief, the people who love it just as you, are out there, they are waiting for you, so don’t beat yourself up. The number one thing is do you enjoy it, do you love it? If you do, just keep going, if you don’t take a break, touch grass, decide if you want to stop or continue and strictly stick to things you enjoy. You come first, and I love that you admitted at the end, so keep yourself first and keep going for it. You have got this my chief

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I think it’s the balance between “I create because I hate myself and I’ll punish myself by overworking” and “I create because I love myself so much I want to see myself reach my highest potential in this lifetime.” At least that’s how it’s been for me. Also I’m bipolar, so a lot of these polarities are easier to accept there’s not much I can do except adjust. Also love that you’re so unafraid of being vulnerable here 🤗🤗

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Sometimes it doesn’t matter what is fueling you. Just the fact that you are fueled. 1000 $tipn

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thanks for sharing, not easy to be vulnerable online <3 i resonate with your thoughts and i agree that all we can do is keep going and having faith. ill share more insights ive been having while experiencing similar things and having similar thoughts no one knows what they are doing but some are good at pretending! even if someone has a stable life and roadmap, life can switch it up any moment. so being flexible and open to the unknown has been my own conclusion external validation is not a pathology, its built inside our code to want that since we are social animals. its just that in this kind of societal system, it has become distorted for various reasons and weaponized for profit. i hear you a lot around the environment tho and knowing the connections of that has made me also feel trapped absolute balance is an illusion, nature operates on chaos. in the grand scheme of things though, all this chaos has a unique kind of balance itself in our lives its ok to feel all these different kind of feels hug

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this is the human condition

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