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tiny
@tinyrainboot
sometimes i get frustrated with myself because i know most of my drive to achieve comes out of a need for validation. a need to feel worthy. a deep hole inside of me whittled away by years of feeling unseen and unheard and unacknowledged. i am channeling these feelings into the act of creation, and i wonder if it’s all corrupt from the start. if i didn’t have these feelings, would i do anything at all? would i just be satisfied with the status quo? is there a balance here? is there a “right way”? am i healing myself through reinforcement? proving to myself that i am enough? i don’t know what the right way to do anything is. all i know is that i have to give myself a shot. to pour all the energy i can into my own success. it kind of feels like i keep adding challenges for myself. to prove that i can overcome them. slowly, i am understanding my power, but this can also be an extremely exhausting way to live. i guess all any of us can do is keep plodding along. and having faith, and trusting that the path is illuminating itself as we walk.
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☽Selene☾
@selenevisions
thanks for sharing, not easy to be vulnerable online <3 i resonate with your thoughts and i agree that all we can do is keep going and having faith. ill share more insights ive been having while experiencing similar things and having similar thoughts no one knows what they are doing but some are good at pretending! even if someone has a stable life and roadmap, life can switch it up any moment. so being flexible and open to the unknown has been my own conclusion external validation is not a pathology, its built inside our code to want that since we are social animals. its just that in this kind of societal system, it has become distorted for various reasons and weaponized for profit. i hear you a lot around the environment tho and knowing the connections of that has made me also feel trapped absolute balance is an illusion, nature operates on chaos. in the grand scheme of things though, all this chaos has a unique kind of balance itself in our lives its ok to feel all these different kind of feels hug
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tiny
@tinyrainboot
love you, thank you, you're a light in this world
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