internet diary

sometimes i get frustrated with myself because i know most of my drive to achieve comes out of a need for validation. a need to feel worthy. a deep hole inside of me whittled away by years of feeling unseen and unheard and unacknowledged. 

i am channeling these feelings into the act of creation, and i wonder if it’s all corrupt from the start. 

if i didn’t have these feelings, would i do anything at all? would i just be satisfied with the status quo?

is there a balance here? is there a “right way”? am i healing myself through reinforcement? proving to myself that i am enough? 

i don’t know what the right way to do anything is. all i know is that i have to give myself a shot. to pour all the energy i can into my own success. 

it kind of feels like i keep adding challenges for myself. to prove that i can overcome them. slowly, i am understanding my power, but this can also be an extremely exhausting way to live. 

i guess all any of us can do is keep plodding along. and having faith, and trusting that the path is illuminating itself as we walk.

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Sometimes it doesn’t matter what is fueling you.  Just the fact that you are fueled.

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