@marlo
i found an interesting money block yesterday
things felt off, and after digging i realized it wasn’t about receiving, but wanting itself
when i simply said “i want” a rush of grief welled up
early on, a part of me had decided that wanting things was hopeless, and only led to disappointment. even worse, to want something openly was a guarantee i wouldn’t get it
one of the worst effects of trauma is that it severely limits your imagination. it convinces you that better isn’t even an option, and you adapt to that version of reality in a very destructive way to survive
so i used parts work to heal all of the beliefs around wanting, updating my subconscious programming to the present reality, which is completely different. now when i say “i want” i only feel a buzz of excitement
i’m really looking forward to seeing how this shift materializes