depression is so fucked cause why has the last four weeks been the best four weeks of the last two years of my life & yet i’m cycling  

tell me why the whole gang, including myself, is increasingly finding work meaningful, increasing financially aligned, and increasingly optimistic about our future & yet the dark clouds are moving in

more than two years of my life is finally culminating in the next week, contracts flying out the door, inbounds are on fire, the market is heating up & the profits are flowing & yet my mental has significantly deteriorated over these last three days 

everything is looking up… except my stupid fucking brain—like please stfu, we don’t need to do this every few months—enough

i’m just ranting & sprinting in between words; everything is fine; i just need to beat the shit out of myself every so often to prove to myself that i’m still alive 

appreciate y’all

it’s crazy that y’all don’t have 3 imaginary friends all calling you a worthless piece of shit every 3 minutes

don't listen To them you Just have To believe Your Self Again.
Think About Your Last successful experience 💪