confessions

i envy some of you a lot sometimes.

i see you all make friends so effortlessly and let people in your inner or outter circle and form lil communities and think to myself that i wish i didn’t have the bad experiences that i did and i wish i was able to trust people and give them a chance to be in my life more easily i wish i didn’t make them pass a made up test in my mind and only then allow them in. it also doesn’t help that pattern recognition picks up on things that others don’t and it makes it harder to trust people. it doesn’t help that strong sense of justice makes it difficult to see things between the black and white. i’m so tired of being this way. so so tired.

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this resonates 

it’s really really really hard not to let bad experiences really change how you interact with the world

backend eng; full-stack curious

writer, icon, retired rave queen

it's very tiring and it can act as a barrier to ppl showing you love

wish i had advice on how to fix it!