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the way my mother talks about herself makes me feel sad 

then i wonder if my own approach to life is a retaliation, a deep will to "not be like that"

are my actions, my desire to step into my own power and take control over my life, reactionary or innate?

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That’s such a strong reflection. I’m probably around your mother’s age, and I think many of us grew up without much focus on self-esteem or emotional awareness. We were often told to just keep going and not ask too many questions — and that leaves a trace.

t reminds me of something I once read:
'Peter is an alcoholic — yes, his father was too; that’s the example he grew up with.
Peter is sober — yes, his father was an alcoholic, so he made other choices.'

Sometimes we repeat what we saw, and sometimes we do the opposite — but either way, it shapes us.

that's true 🥺 ofc there are many reasons and trauma that made my mother how she is, i just wish she could believe in herself and have a more fulfilling life experience. appreciate your comment and the quote you shared. thank you 222 $degen