internet diary

creating and destroying; flying cars, jet engines, roc.camera, july.rocks /faust

sometimes i get mad at myself for what a mindless humanoid i used to be 

i had no care for curating what media i consumed, who i spent my time with, or how i allocated my precious time

i was honestly so hopeless, lost, depressed and living without any purpose 

i have now realized how each of these categories very acutely shapes my life experience, and that i have almost total control over my mental state based upon how i adjust them 

which is honestly wild, because i always thought life was happening “to” me

and i finally realized life is happening “through” me instead

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you may not be perfect, but your light shines through, even url. goes to show the inner work you’ve done <3

all that to say i’m still not perfect about this ofc but i am getting better and my life experience continues to improve as i realize how much power i have over it

experiments, stories, and haikus for people curious enough to read: paragraph.xyz/@oversky

derealization can be shit. reading what you wrote made me think of the zen saying, “If the eye is unobstructed, the result is sight; if the ear is unobstructed, the result is hearing; if the nose is unobstructed, the result is smell; if the tongue is unobstructed, the result is taste; if the mind is unobstructed, the result is wisdom.”

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another perspective would be to appreciate yourself for growing to the point that you have. this is a lovely discovery that i suspect many ppl never uncover