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tiny
@tinyrainboot
sometimes i get frustrated with myself because i know most of my drive to achieve comes out of a need for validation. a need to feel worthy. a deep hole inside of me whittled away by years of feeling unseen and unheard and unacknowledged. i am channeling these feelings into the act of creation, and i wonder if it’s all corrupt from the start. if i didn’t have these feelings, would i do anything at all? would i just be satisfied with the status quo? is there a balance here? is there a “right way”? am i healing myself through reinforcement? proving to myself that i am enough? i don’t know what the right way to do anything is. all i know is that i have to give myself a shot. to pour all the energy i can into my own success. it kind of feels like i keep adding challenges for myself. to prove that i can overcome them. slowly, i am understanding my power, but this can also be an extremely exhausting way to live. i guess all any of us can do is keep plodding along. and having faith, and trusting that the path is illuminating itself as we walk.
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Father Morwen
@rev-morwen.eth
There's nothing wrong with doing things for recognition. Everyone wants to be heard and seen. I often feel that way about my own work; what is art without an audience to see it? That desire indicates that there is a part of you that needs to be seen and heard, either by you or other people. I encourage you to sit with that part of yourself, that emptiness, and just sit with it; what does it really need? What does it want yo tell you? Better yet, use your art to explore it! From the darkness can be found light.
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tiny
@tinyrainboot
yes, i suppose it is a driving force, and that doesn’t *have* to be something negative? 111 $degen
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