when i can relax fully into a state of wu wei/flow/gnosis the experience is so intense for me that reality literally feels like a lucid dream

i become extremely energized, i somehow know things that should be impossible to know, and i seem to be able to bend reality to my will effortlessly 

because of how powerful it is, you’d think that i would make this state the goal of my life, yet the challenge of doing so is incredibly immense most of the time. it takes me several hours a day in isolation with intense focus, and my nervous system seems to be working against me the entire time

that was working top-down, though. for the last several weeks i’ve been using my therapy sessions to heal and reprogram myself from the root level to be able to make relaxation my default state

instead of transcending the ego, i’ve been embracing it, bringing my worst self to the forefront for integration and healing. no bypassing, only complete honesty and surrender

feeling closer to my goal state every week ✨

Moderate-to-severe symptoms.


Writing a book /mirror-loom : https://paragraph.xyz/@mirrorandloom/

for wu wei in general, or the recent strategy?

Amazing, any tips to share? Embrace the ego?