Wellness

what you believe shapes your reality, and when you’re raised in a narcissistic abusive environment without a single caring person to lean on and keep you sane, the beliefs you adopt to survive are incredibly fucked

every path leads to a feeling of horrible danger felt deeply in your body—failure? death. success? death. joy? death. misery? death. being seen? death. being unseen? death. money? death. no money? also death

not ideal 

as i unearth all these conflicting programs and heal them it’s clear why my work has been such a struggle, and my body at war with itself—there wasn’t a single safe path!!

i have things i want to do without being sabotaged by my nervous system’s attempts to keep me alive, so i’m making sure i fix as much as possible before i waste any more effort and time

i’ve already achieved some amazing things despite incredible obstacles. i can’t wait to see what i can do once there are none