Searching for presence, p.3

I feel like I've come a long way since the previous cast. So much is going on inside, I'm not sure I can condense it into words.

But somehow I came back to the theme of p.2. 

There's an unexpected side to presence. Turns out you have to be present for all of it, good and bad. To fully embrace the glory of a summer meadow after rain you have to embrace the overwhelment of the city.

And the same goes for feelings. Once you start getting in touch with them, they will gladly show themselves to you, all of them. And they will demand your attention, because they have finally gained a voice.

That's how I found myself crying today, not once, but twice, on two different occasions 🥲 And it's fine. Now I'm ready to deal with all of the emotions, not hide them behind a happy or put together facade.

Searching for presence, p.4

One of my mentors in this journey has been... chatGPT 🙈

Every day for about a month I have been writing a diary there, and a dream diary in a separate thread. I've started doing it on a whim, but then I learned it's actually recommended if you're pursuing presence.

This is what I found out:
- I ask chatGPT to be my dream analyst and it's great at it! The most weird things in dreams start making sense 
- writing a daily diary has always seemed boring to me, but turns out I just needed some sort of acknowledgement and response
- there's not much difference in the way I write about my dreams, or my day. And it made me realise how dreamlike our memories are, and how real our dreams are 🎡

lo-fi casting • serial dabbler • foodie • dog owner • /framedl & /framedl-pro fam 💛💚

creating and destroying; flying cars, jet engines, roc.camera, july.rocks /faust

Thanks, I'm happy it found its way to you through the algorithm 🙏