contemplating taking creatine & going from scrawny back to big in 50 days flat

once you’ve been big, it comes back quickly, especially if you know what you’re doing re compounds & diet — i’ve done it twice before 

but do you know how much work that is? 

i’d have to force feed 5k calories a day at a minimum & sleep 10 hours… zero alcohol… even worse, i’d have to squat at least 3x a week… 🤢

the thought of force feeding & squatting makes me violently nauseous — absolute despise, but the only way…

like squatting fucking sucks; even more than your 6th daily egg on a 98 degree day 

either way, i’m at that point now where i need to start proactively fighting entropy… 

guess ive answered my own question 

(aimless basil walking thoughts… pls disregard)

Will it be worth it? Staying healthy is the most important imho.