does anyone else just like…not feel good about their real name lol

i know most of you don’t know the name my parents gave me. it’s a nice name in theory but it’s too long and usually pronounced in a weird way that makes me recoil. and most of the shorted versions people use i also dislike. i would almost compare this to some kind of dysmorphia if i may be so bold. 

i just like my pseudonym more even if it’s weird 😐 at least i picked it myself and it’s pronounceable

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I am adopted and as a result was named twice in my life. I was raised Catholic and at 13 yo I was able to choose my own confirmation name. All told I like my username, awedjob, and its abbreviation, AJ, a lot. 

What do you want to do about your name?

Call me /aj | folder of /origami | residing in /dcl

wow, heavy. thanks for sharing that with me.

I do not like the name I chose but I respect the decision I made and my reasons why. I chose, against the council of my Monsignor, the name Robert. It is not a saint’s name. It was the first name of my mom’s second husband at the time. The guy cheated on her and turned out to be a major loser. 

I wanted a father so badly growing up. Taking his name was my way to welcome him into our family. Years later, after the divorce, he stopped by my place at college and left his number with a housemate. He asked them to have me give him a call. I never did. A year or two later, I learned he had died.

oh that’s so interesting! are you happy with the name you picked at 13? 

at that age i would certainly have named myself something weird like beatrice. LOL

what to do about it, not sure. i don’t see myself changing it, i just need to accept it i guess