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On Living In Grief:
Pain and grief are interesting things to process.
You can feel physical pain, but it doesn’t hurt as much as the pain that cuts deep into your heart—like the loss of a loved one.
You can wake up, go through the day, eat, and drink, but the food won’t have flavor, and the drink will just keep you hydrated.
You can go about your day with only one thing on your mind: wishing you could see them again.
And then reality settles in, and the sadness overcomes you because you realize you will never see them again—and you have to make peace with that.
It’s so important to be able to let go. Letting go doesn’t mean you forget about them. You just accept that you will no longer be able to hold them, contemplate their smile, or even just be around them and hear them laughing. It’s crazy how much we take those moments for granted when we have those people right in front of us, not realizing that one day they might be gone.
The best thing you can do for yourself is to stop denying it—but that’s the hardest part, because once you accept that they’re gone, a little piece of you dies with them.
But that’s not to say you can’t—or shouldn’t—live your life to the fullest. In fact, you definitely should, especially because they no longer have that opportunity. Who are you to squander it?
I’ll never forget the words of my 12th-grade English teacher: “Why not use that God-given brain of yours? It’s not fair to others who don’t have it for you to waste it!” The same can be applied to living your life—fully and wholeheartedly.
So it might be a cliché, but take advantage of the day. *Carpe diem*. Seize the day. It is a gift—one that not everybody gets today. Some people went to sleep and never opened their eyes again. That’s why it’s called the present.
Yeah, you can break a bone or suffer a deep physical wound, and eventually, in most cases, you’ll make a full recovery. **But** you don’t ever fully recover from grief or loss. You just learn to walk around with that knife in your heart that you can’t pull out—and you also shouldn’t push it in deeper.
Just hurt when you need to, but heal *because* you must. Carry on with that pain, which only you can carry…