@yonfrula

recently, i realized i wasn't smoking weed because i wanted to — i was smoking just because i had it. a few times, i tried to stop smoking regularly and told myself i'd only do it on special occasions. but to do that, i had to have weed anyways. so as soon as i ran out, i'd buy more — lying to myself that i'd wait for that special moment. but of course…once i had it, i'd go back to smoking regularly, because why not? weed was never a problem for me, tbh. i stayed fully focused, super productive, hit the gym — lived a normal life, with or without it. there was no dramatic reason to quit, just a quiet feeling that it didn't need to be part of my routine anymore. turns out, the problem wasn't that i couldn't stop smoking — it was that i couldn't stop buying. i was afraid i'd want to smoke someday and have nothing on me, lol. so, i decided to stop buying and boom, easy peasy. haven't really thought about weed since, even after smoking regularly for around 6 years.

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