my biggest red flag?
i disappear.
not in the obvious ways, 
but in the subtle ones, 
texts left unread,
calls ignored like they never rang.
i cancel plans without an excuse, 
fade into the background
of group chats and missed events.
i laugh less,
talk even less than that.
It's easier to ghost than explain 
how heavy my chest feels.
i leave messages half-typed, 
delete them before i hit send, 
telling myself they don't care anyway.
i let the days blur together, 
sleep in too late, 
or not at all, 
i pretend I'm fine 
until i believe it 
until i'm too deep 
to find my way back