I promised myself that I'll take a long break from cannabis but as it is, I'm not sure I'll be taking the break anytime soon. I'm having a weird feeling and I didn't wake up good.
No certain explanation to how I'm feeling but I can sense there's a war going on inside me. I usually smoke out of boredom but now I smoke to ease my mental instability. 
I think I'm drowning with no supportive shoulder to lay my head on.

Talk to God
Tell him if you ever smoke again let's him punish you

That I can't do. Why punishment when I'm not been coarsed into doing it