Some reflections on the move

the moment I started feeling something something about how this move can be life shaping it started raining, it has been raining ever since and I feel that it's representative of my emotions. like seasons are changing...

sometimes I feel that I don't do something rather it happens through me. like what was destined to happen in the moment was happening through me, not me doing it...

For example coordinating with movers and packers, packing stuff, giving away things that I didn't want to carry. It was all happening through me because that was what was destined to happen in that moment. 

little shruti would be so proud of me. it was her dream to be able to be this independent and reliable. i literally did everything by myself 


I also feel i need some quiet now, to look back to the old me and to look forward to the new me