I promised myself that I'll take a long break from cannabis but as it is, I'm not sure I'll be taking the break anytime soon. I'm having a weird feeling and I didn't wake up good.
No certain explanation to how I'm feeling but I can sense there's a war going on inside me. I usually smoke out of boredom but now I smoke to ease my mental instability. 
I think I'm drowning with no supportive shoulder to lay my head on.

Sorry about what’s going on
There a number of options you can talk to a trusted friend and there are online help tools to help you deal with mental stress
I hope you pass through this phase unscathed

I love to read novels, for some reason I think I’m the only one who prefers e books?

Nah. I'm not the open type. I just deal with shit alone