Proof Of inner Work

my psychologist told me we are on the phase of uncovering memories. and ive been remembering that when i was little and got really frustrated / angry i threw things with strength and then they broke and i couldn’t use them anymore

i don’t remember what specific items they were yet though

i remembered that as a consequence of an argument with my partner. i started washing the dishes after it and i was (surprise!) frustrated / angry and I threw a glass with strength and it almost broke and suddenly i remembered that i used to do that when i felt like that

i also remembered that i hit my head with my knuckles. i was so frustrated that the only way to take it out was hitting me

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this resonates man. I had therapy today and realised that between my fear and anger I don't allow for sadness. yet I know that grief would help me a lot to have less expectations. and if I shrink the delta between my idealised and real self then I'd be less frustrated.