july

at the core of the relationship that jp has with reality through life and biology there is an all encompassing emotion, or physical sensation:

solitude

its degree is present even in the presence of people that express utmost love to jp. no matter which are the words. they are like arrows that are targeted to the heart. arrows that come from beings that are just pure love. but there is a layer of resistance on the very core of my self that can’t embrace this yet fully, and rejects the notion of being already whole and the opposite of alone

i feel extremely and existentially lonely, and there is nothing i can do to feel different. at least I haven’t discovered it yet

but who is the i that is saying that?

that’s the core inquiry

IMHO

father, meditator and (freelance miniapp builder and consultant). this month working for $runner

Wow, your deep reflection on solitude is so moving, it shows such incredible self-awareness and courage to explore these feelings