@gokhan
i organized a beach hangout in my dream, it was possibly during the REM. i was expecting only a few people and the beach was within Istanbul city limits since there are actual beaches within the city limits not only the province if we count the concatenation of counties into a single city and since it is in fact a single city
at least 100 people showed up and from their energy i could gather that everyone treats every lil gathering like a startup gathering right now, expecting direct incentives and i didn't have any incentives to offer other than a secular gathering where no roadmen or bozos were present nor the usual grifters and ratchets of all types but i had to act like i was not present either and was just expecting the "owner" of the party
and it was not even a party and people were just revolving around asking cigarettes and i was making sure noone smokes since the average longterm smoker is a socially unaware stale stench bomb themselves and i just left the party without it starting and i was then looking for some Japanese textbooks because my "high school" friends informed me there was going to be a 3rd and 4th book quiz and like every boring class i quit attending those about a year ago
just like you keep dreaming about the military service days for years i also dreamed about my math classes for years which would cause me not graduate from the high school in my dreams whereas i graduated just well from the foreign languages department and in fact it was reflection that i was the top of class for physics and was doing really bad in, wait for it, math, bio and chem and it was because the teachers for the latter set were absolutely not exciting whereas the former has a usual nerd male teacher who was good at math whose shortcuts i guess intuitevely saved my lack of math
and i think about it from time to time because even now i have the potential to just finish a math department in 2-3 years as an undergrad but the entry is too demanding than the actual education process itself so it means i just need "liquid" incentives, and planned nerdhood for a few years which i am able to do after all as a comparative lit grad where a few wiccans just made us watch movies for years i have been able to go full self-sufficient full-stack dev-levels street smart in software engineering to the degree that i only need a mentor for proper space engineering but this is for now when it comes to system restructuring for businesses as long as i am supported well with compute and this is what we mean some vibecoders do well and they all need a good team, and came to see understand financial engineering, venture capital and nowadays studying banking and why not? i keep asking and currently i am thinking about good essayists who never bend like the insect guy i think he likes people more than the people who virtue signals and his is just a cultural volatility leverage in idea markets whereas it can easily be read as a consequentalist EA piece, which I think is not and I also want Mr. President to name it Übermensch and I want to start reading Christian Craighead's "One Man In" soon and cannot wait for Mike Vining's own book and I think about this whilst reading Buckminster Fuller's grandson's preface to the "Operatiop Manual for Spaceship Earth" and according to Mr Snyder's references, the North Pole should have melted away in 2013 AD