@tagawamakoto
Actually, my grandfather is an A-bomb survivor. My father was born as a second-generation A-bomb survivor and was very frail.
As a third generation A-bomb survivor, I have received peace education since elementary school.
Since I did not experience the horrors of war myself, I cannot know 100% of your situation.
However, having lived with these roots, I would be happy if I could understand even a part of your mind.