@shona

i disappeared from here for a bit. i lost my mother, and the world hasn’t felt the same since. It's only been a week, and it’s hard to explain what it’s like to lose the person who made you, held you, taught you how to love, how to survive. It’s like the ground vanished beneath me, and I’m still falling, slowly, quietly. Grief is a strange companion. It shows up in waves, in silence, in sudden sobs, in old songs, in the way the sunlight hits a chair she used to sit in. I keep wondering if I was enough. If she knew how much I loved her. I miss her laugh. Her warmth. Her presence, the kind that made everything feel safe, even when nothing was okay. This pain is sharp. But so was her love. And I carry that with me now, even in the dark. I am now an orphan, I lost my father 8 years ago, and now my only remaining parent whom i thought we'd spend the rest of our lives together in harmony. I am not okay, but I will learn to live with this loss. 💔😢

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