@odysseyheart

gm And here it is, Friday already. Another week gone in a blink. And with it comes the realisation that it's the week day I've assigned myself to write and publish a Substack article in my program. Yet I don't feel much like writing an essay today. Being a full time creative person, (aka an unemployed ungrateful child according to my father) does not come easily. Having specific tasks and a daily rhythm to hold the totality of a practice together is good and necessary. I genuinely believe that. But it is also, at times, a stretch. Especially when you're uninspired, emotionally drained, and just tired. Structure is good. A prison is not. I spend so much time following the myth of consistency. Every other video on my TikTok feed is some guru telling me that if I just show up every day, post every day, stay consistent I'll break through, find my people, reach my goals. And maybe that's true. But is it sustainable for all of us? For those of us whose creativity rarely moves in a straight line? I launched my ceramic shop one month ago and I showed up for it. Every day, across platforms, pushing myself in ways that were genuinely and deeply freeing. I came out of my comfort zone and I liked it. But when the people watching your work are the same handful of friends who aren't tired of you yet, or are simply too kind to say so, it gets draining. Quietly, consistently draining. So I don't know. I love narrating this journey, I really do, my elective artist name reminds me daily that it's all in the odyssey, in the becoming. But sometimes it is just tiring. And I have to let myself off the hook. Accept that the plan is a guideline, not a law. That a creative mind doesn't run on a schedule. Which is rarely a straight line anyway.

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