I used to go surf as the sun was setting when I was younger - and I’d get so angry on my drive there, thinking I only have 45 mins - and while I was surfing I’d be so miserable 

Recently I realized sometime ago - that I don’t do this anymore. Is it a willingness more to get in the water because I want to even if the circumstances and conditions aren’t great? I don’t know what’s changed but

creating and destroying; flying cars, roc.camera, july.rocks /july /faust

Part of it is being frustrated at yourself part of it is just time and part of it is growing it up and learning from mistakes

Ok different story - I have often thought that the phrase “the straw that broke the camels back” is odd and doesn’t apply. Recently - I disagree - there are times and days when years happen in weeks and - it does break the camels back for better and for worse

From time to time I still find myself of course being frustrated and failing at doing something because of circumstances and situations and things don’t work out

But here’s the deal! I do think you can feel a breath of fresh air, of getting to the top of the mountain or not doesn’t make or break your day. The hike up - it’s actually nice too, and I’m not saying don’t go to the top, just that it’s nice. I’m glad to be seeing this view

Variance between expectations and outcomes approaches 0 with consistency!

In other words, just show up and don’t expect a session will be awesome if the report looks good and vice-versa.

Maybe something has changed maybe it hasn’t changed but there’s a subtle willingness to show up for things even if it doesn’t work out - maybe that’s the difference it’s not really about whether you show up or not but maybe it’s just not letting the outcome tell you how you have to feel today

Reading this as I’m about to put on my wetsuit for a 45min surf in the fog ha

Lately I’ve been getting on my bike, even just for a lap around the yard. It didn’t used to be enough, but now it’s all I need. 

I’m realizing that a little time on the bike is better than none; time is short.

Ignoring that constant mental chatter and just meeting the moment as it is... hard work but a game changer for me.