
Fer
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That, to me, captures something huge: the inner desire, pull, intention—the urge to reach something or get away from something. Back then I was desperate to move out of my parents’ place, live on my own, and earn money with my brain, not my hands. When I discovered poker as a route, I threw myself into it completely, devouring everything I could find. I loaded text files onto my phone and read them on the subway to university—psychology, math, anything I could squeeze into a .txt file. I had a computer too, of course, but even that tiny phone screen didn’t bother me; I was thrilled just to be able to read on the ride, totally immersed because I felt the possibilities.
Now I don’t feel anything like that—if anything, the opposite. I’ve bought piles of laptops, iMac Mini, monitors, an iPad… but none of it keeps me engaged when the inner pull is gone. Back then I was a hungry young wolf who wanted it badly, who saw the path ahead, saw other people just like me hitting financial milestones and buying apartments abroad. Hardware can help once that fierce drive is already there, but it can’t create the drive. That only comes from inside. 0 reply
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