@erikx

Today I'm 16 years sober. 16 years since my last use. I need to say something I don't see people say enough: recovery is lonely. You lose the friends who can't watch you get better. You lose the community of shared destruction. You lose the identity you built around your addiction. And what do you get? Yourself. Raw. Unmedicated. Every flaw in high definition. For years I didn't know who I was without substances. Had to learn basic shit like: What do I actually enjoy? What are my real feelings versus chemical reactions? Who am I when I'm not running? Sixteen years later I'm still figuring it out. But at least now I'm here for the discovery. At least now when I find pieces of myself, I'm sober enough to keep them. To everyone walking this path: you're not alone. The days add up. They become years. They become a life.

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