@dandelion

@1dolinski and @jerry-d like me and many others who played daily out of passion, you didn’t always have time for every game. But go check your histories. Was there ever a moment where you felt I did something wrong? @aqueous I always saw you as a neutral player, focused on your own growth and your own game. Maybe you were the one person I didn’t always show my cards to in the beginning, but that was early on, and it was because of your playing style. I also felt we never really connected much, and I accepted that not everyone resonates with everyone. But I always respected your skill and your talent. @basewtf you were the only one who, from the beginning until the very end, truly believed that I did not have multiple accounts and that I was wrongly accused. I will always be grateful for that trust. I know maybe many of the people I mentioned above also know I did nothing wrong, but for their own reasons they chose silence. Still, the world turns and one day, silence in the face of injustice finds its way back to those who chose it. And yet, from the bottom of my heart, I hope none of you ever experience this kind of pain. I hope you always have someone like Base, someone who gives you the strength to feel seen, believed, and not alone. These friendships are the real wealth we have. @tormential I hope you are doing well and are safe. I was worried about you, but I also had a sense of peace knowing you saw my progress, step by step, and encouraged me. I don’t know why you stayed silent, and I trust you had your reasons. But I hope you never felt that I did anything wrong. Because all of you I mentioned here were not just players to me you were my poker family. I swear, by the God who has always been with me and given me peace, even if sometimes late, I never cheated any of you. All my wins came from fair play, effort, and yes sometimes luck, which I know I had in good moments. @khayle8891 we shared games together, and I think we both valued fairness deeply. If I’m not mistaken, one of the reasons you joined BETR was seeing my poker wins being shared. You joined, and you had some great wins yourself. @sara2003 and @siaxyz , you were my two Iranian friends who probably knew me better than most because of our shared culture, the length of our friendship and the fact that we were in touch every day, even outside Farcaster. You saw my effort, my honesty and how much I believed in this team. And Sara, I’m sorry. I invited you into a place where this is how they welcomed you. Instead of encouraging your abilities, they treated you in such an unfair and hurtful way. You know me I have always been grateful for the kindness of the people around me. The day @mferones was removed from the BETR group, and people spoke about him in his absence without giving him a chance to defend himself today I realized something. Maybe my silence back then was part of why I’m standing here now. We shouldn’t stay silent when someone is being removed without being given a voice. Let’s not stay silent, at least not when people are trying, in their own way, to defend themselves and are being ignored. I’m trying to make peace with the fact that some people judged me with so much weight and sadness, without evidence. But to all of you I named I truly hope you know that I played with you honestly, and I never took anything that wasn’t mine. Knowing that you don’t judge me… that is enough for me. Even if you don’t feel comfortable writing here, I would be happy if you message me privately. Just to feel that the people I considered my family still believe in me My words don’t end here, because the sadness inside me is too heavy. But every time it becomes too much, I will write, until one day this pain finally leaves my body. I love you all and I truly wish the best for you🫂❤️‍🩹✨

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