Hey guys, so I feel like this is the only platform that I can be vulnerable on, one martini in.

I lost my faith in Christianity months ago when I found out that before male centered religions dominating that goddess worship dominated 

and that the top (patriarchal) religions paint women to be the fall of humanity from the start. 

I used to be a huge Christian until I learned this. Majority of my friends and close family still are. But I try not to spread my “hedonism” or deny the Lord in front of them in case there is still hope in Christianity and in salvation. A lot of Christian beliefs are still embedded in me, and so my belief is in a rocky place, where I don’t believe and I’m still afraid to “curse the Lord and die.”

I still believe in a creator. I believe this world is too miraculous to be made without intention, but I can’t wrap my mind around the fact that the creator has a gender, and that he is a man. Or that “she” would even be a woman. it all just seems unfair and biased.

I once believed the world was crafted by a single hand, too. But what if that hand was never male or female? What if it was just a hand—untouched by gender, free from bias—creating all of us in equal measure?

Antonella

@antonel